I feel so alone and suffer from very bad depression. I know, there are lots of people who need help, besides me. I have gone through some horrible abuse. as a young mother. My daughter died at 4 yrs old and I was beaten and made to go back to work instantly. I want into shock, but by the grace of God I managed to get away from my ex. I raised my 2 sons alone and was happy for awhile. Also, I went to a technical college on a pell grant and received a degree. My life improved for awhile until my job shut down. I began getting sicker and more depressed. The abuse from my ex has taken it's toll on my 2 sons and I. One is mentally challenged, and my youngest is looking for work. He is a hard worker and is very hyper. He had to take ritalin in elementary school. I can feel his pain and depression as, sometimes he tries to drink his problems away. I feel like I have really let my family down, because I did the same thing, after my job closed . But I have been sober for many years. Anxiety attacks and high blood pressure, plus clinical depression for me is horrible. We're on a FIXED income...but still can't make it . Our home is going down hill fast. No water in kitchen...kitchen floor is falling through. Neither of my 2 sons know anything about carpentry. Nor, can we afford to pay anyone to fix it. But I thank God for his blessings. I love to go to my church. There is where we need to be. I can't go, because it's a small church uptown and I live in the country. I would like to get a car of anykind. To go to dr appointments and pay what I can on utilities. Also, to pick up medicine and visit the sick and poor like me.....I love trying to help others. I lost my baby sister at age 16 in a car accident. My best friend my mother 4 years ago. And my humble, beloved brother 2 yrs ago. It hurts so bad. I feel alone and scared for my family. Please pray for us and God Bless all of you. I need some friends.
I feel so alone and suffer from very bad depression. I know, there are lots of people who need help, besides me. I have gone through some horrible abuse. as a young mother. My daughter died at 4 yrs old and I was beaten and made to go back to work instantly. I want into shock, but by the grace of God I managed to get away from my ex. I raised my 2 sons alone and was happy for awhile. Also, I went to a technical college on a pell grant and received a degree. My life improved for awhile until my job shut down. I began getting sicker and more depressed. The abuse from my ex has taken it's toll on my 2 sons and I. One is mentally challenged, and my youngest is looking for work. He is a hard worker and is very hyper. He had to take ritalin in elementary school. I can feel his pain and depression as, sometimes he tries to drink his problems away. I feel like I have really let my family down, because I did the same thing, after my job closed . But I have been sober for many years. Anxiety attacks and high blood pressure, plus clinical depression for me is horrible. We're on a FIXED income...but still can't make it . Our home is going down hill fast. No water in kitchen...kitchen floor is falling through. Neither of my 2 sons know anything about carpentry. Nor, can we afford to pay anyone to fix it. But I thank God for his blessings. I love to go to my church. There is where we need to be. I can't go, because it's a small church uptown and I live in the country. I would like to get a car of anykind. To go to dr appointments and pay what I can on utilities. Also, to pick up medicine and visit the sick and poor like me.....I love trying to help others. I lost my baby sister at age 16 in a car accident. My best friend my mother 4 years ago. And my humble, beloved brother 2 yrs ago. It hurts so bad. I feel alone and scared for my family. Please pray for us and God Bless all of you. I need some friends.
